Before everything, before time and space and the material world, there was an all-powerful perfect supreme force. It could do everything and create anything; there were no limitations.

Yet, omnipotent as it was, it couldn’t be, simply, everything; the almighty God could not be… or become… limited. Paradoxically, the moment you are all-powerful, you can’t be weak; the moment when you’re great, you can’t be small; the moment when you’re infinite… you can’t be limited… Ironically, when you have it all, you cannot “not have” something.

You are bound to your own boundlessness.

Allow yourself to ponder on what I’ve just written…

So God needed to experience being limited – all things considered. So he created – or made happen – this world and this life and us. He made everything as limited as possible; he limited our lives to about 100 years, he limited our physical body and he made sure that we or others will limit our life paths and our spiritual quests. He “squeezed” us as much as possible. And then he threw us from the Garden of Eden (or he made that happen… or conveniently allowed it to happen…).

The first human being actually born was not Adam. He was made. Not Eve. She was also made. The first human ever born was Cain. He is the first human to be born from “freshly limited” beings. He is no longer a creation of the Infinite; he is the creation of the primordial finite beings. The first man ever born is also the first criminal.

Below is a recent movie – A brief disagreement, by Steve Cutts. It resumes in 3 minutes the rest of the history and probably what will come after the end of our current phase of history. Enjoy!

When Cain killed Abel, God didn’t punish him. He suspiciously protected him from others and cursed those who might try to kill him so as to retaliate. God tried to stop the chain of killings and, as the video shows, He seems to have succeeded throughout history, despite the appearances. We’re still here and you read what I wrote; apparently, those who wanted to revenge “the Abels” couldn’t kill all “the Cains”.

Everything started from a unique issue: sacrifice: Cain didn’t sacrifice “the best of the best”, while Abel went “all in”. Giving the best you have is a sign of strong faith, of adoration. But it also means that you lose the most, you lose perhaps the best part of what you own or what you have or what you are. To put it differently, you “limit” yourself, voluntarily, knowing that God will reward you for this. And this is suspiciously resembling to something I wrote above… Is God happy or pleased because you sacrifice something and show your love for Him, or is God happy to see that you are doing exactly the only thing He cannot do? You voluntarily limit yourself… He might wish He could do the same, but given the fact that He is limit-less, He resigns Himself in a “voyeuristic” position…

This is one very heretic idea. Fortunately I live in a time when I can hope I won’t get killed for asking questions. But I can be certain I will end up in Hell, if there is one…

God favors not the bold, but the faithful. As you can see, there are always a lot of “faith-full” idiots in positions of power, while “good” people who just do their thing are living bitter average lives. God favors the sacrifices and those who do them “properly”, and what more can you sacrifice if it’s not your own mind, your own individuality, your own identity?! God is jealous if you aim to take His place and live an existentialistic life of free will, responsibility, meaning and freedom, where His place and role is often minimized or removed, typically by an atheistic attitude. “What a poor-quality sacrifice is this?!?” In the meantime, the “idiots of this world”, the most vicious criminals who have “properly” sacrificed everything, probably their entire existence, so as to be completely blind and blinded by their sick passions… they… are living… and thriving… and breeding…

The most valuable thing for the limit-less God is, it seems, the experience of being limited. The most valuable thing for man is, it seems, to be exactly the opposite, to be infinitely resourceful and free. And this couple – God and man – seems to be caught in a never-ending story: the more sacrifices the man makes, the more limits is he imposing on himself, the more satisfaction God gets and the more help or power He grants to that man.

Cain, the first born man, didn’t like this. He saw God’s “sick game”. And he probably got disgusted to the point of committing murder. He couldn’t kill God but he killed Abel. A weak choice I can argue… but this is what Cain thought to be the best solution. Perhaps he might have become jealous as well…

God didn’t punish Cain. Did He felt Cain has discovered His “guilty passion” for experimenting bondage-like limitations? Or He was pleased that Cain had actually self-limited himself by becoming a murderer, so his life was now “interesting” and worthy of God’s curiosity?! Anyway, Cain keeps living in each of us, as the video above clearly shows; he is part of what the human existence means. So perhaps, in the final analysis, Cain’s sacrifice – his own brother – was finally deemed acceptable?!

The story of Cain and God remains a mystery. It is an old myth and can have many interpretations. It encourages us to be bold and try to understand its hidden meanings. The story was transmitted from generation to generation, for thousands of years, because it probably has some value, it teaches us something. It invites us to ponder on what the most valuable thing is for us and what is worthy to be sacrificed. But it also reveals a God we might have never encountered before: a curious and very present, yet unseen God, caught in a tense relationship with us, a God who “needs” our limited existence so as to keep being limitless… in other words, a “complicated” God.